I want to use you.
I want to use you the way a tree grows roots and
dives deep into soil
I want to find inside you what I need to grow
I want to stretch my limbs,
let them tangle in clouds
and feel the sun break across my boughs
This heavy light making me strong
I want the weight of your wind
To bend me to the point of breaking
So I can know how to adapt,
when faced with an onslaught
that might destroy a weaker spirit.
I want to feel the rich joy of opening wide
A heart that beats furiously,
I want to understand what it is to be alive
And thrive in the knowledge
That I already possess
The patience required to become
The person I seek.
The person I’ll never find inside you
because she’s here